Friday, January 15, 2016

This is my first entry for the year 2016. I have been wrapped in a blanket of fear, despair and hopelessness.

This winter has been a rough road of grief. Depression and PTSD compounded by a period of mourning for the passing of my dad. This morning for the first time in a long time I woke up and felt brave enough to go outside and shovel the driveway.

It was quiet in our little cul de sac, I carried no sadness and I just took in the sights and sounds of a cold winter day in Alberta. The sound of the shovel as it scraped across the pavement, a bird singing it’s morning song and the sight of rabbit foot prints in the fresh white layer of snow.
During the moving of the snow I had warm wonderful memories of dad and I shoveling the same paths just 2 years ago. I had no tears this morning only love and gratitude. Enough grace for the day.

When I came into the house I tucked myself into my little corner and opened my iPad to check FB. I had a message from a dear friend. The message went something like this: I have been thinking of you a lot lately and this morning as I read my Bible I read Genesis 1:2 where God said “Let there be light and it happened.” It brought tears to my eyes as I prayed God would bring light to you. I am hoping you have a God-light day.

So far it has been a wonderful God- light day. Thank you for thinking of me dear friend.

I hope the prayers I say for people who come across my path have impact in their life, like the message I received today.